For you

I have an issue of thinking too much
Worrying about the things that don’t matter
Or do they?

You’re there to push those thoughts away
As gently as you smile and pull me in
For a hug I don’t deserve

My darkest thoughts, my fears, and desires
All kept in your heart, a trove
Of things to use against me

I cling, in my desperation
Selfishly wanting you to be mine
Unworthy of your affection

I take your happiness and
Devour it, sustaining myself
Because I am weak, a leech

All these things, I am vile
For doing to the one who loves me
Because I cannot love myself

But because I love you
I want to change
To be the person who can give and be
Worthy of your time
And your care
And your love

Because I love you
I want to learn
To treat you like you’ve done
Strong to bear your problems
And your hopes
And your thoughts

Because I love you
I want to live
And restrain you less
So that you’re free to choose me
Or another
Or nobody

Because I love you
I want to love and be loved
To be selfish because I know
You’re selfish too
And scared
And worried

Because I love you.
And because you love me.
I am willing to think less
And love more
And smile more
And be more